Friday, January 28, 2011

gaya budak mrsm?

di suatu petang yang sunyi..

hanya bunyi keyboard dan lagu-lagu ala-ala dengar tak dengar dari speaker PC..

tiba-tiba..

"eh, you dulu budak mrsm ek?"

mak aih, terperanjat omak~ haha..

"ha ah, mane tau?"

dan dengan selambe badaknye jawapan yang aku dapat..

"ade gaya budak mrsm"

biler aku tanyer, "camne gaye budak mrsm?"

dier da pasang earphone and sambung buat kerja dier balik..

alaa..

ni yang wat aku curious ni..

camne lak gaya budak mrsm?

tak pernah tau pun..

korang tau tak?




Sunday, January 23, 2011

Given Up






Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the f**k is wrong with me

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused, but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow, somewhere
And no one cares

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the f**k is wrong with me

God!
Put me out of my misery!
Put me out of my misery!
Put me out of my..
Put me out of my f**king misery!


I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the f**k is wrong with me

What is wrong with me???!!!






Saturday, January 22, 2011

ada orang tag, yeay yeay


yeay yeay~ cik kikaro telah mengetag aku..haha..



"Once you have been tagged,you are suppose to write a note, with 25 random thing, fact, habits or goal about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tag you, it's because I want to know more about you. Your cooperation is highly appreciated."



ha, camtu la bunyiknyer tag tersebut~ eceh~ ader bunyik ke? :P

so, 25 things yer? ok, jom tengok aper nak merepek ni..tak tau la korang da tau ke tak tapi nak tulis gak :P



1. dulu-dulu adik-adik aku kater aku garang, tapi aku tak ingat..hahaha..tapi sekarang ni aku garang ke tak, aku pun tak tau..haha

2. tak suka kena paksa dan kene kongkong..ini serius..:P

3. ader lesen tapi da lamer giler tak drive, maybe kene suruh ayah aku blanje kete baru sejibik, baru rajen nak drive balik kot..haha

4. rajin melukis kartun time zaman kanak-kanak..time tu raser berbakat je, tapi sekarang macam tak berseni langsung..haha

5. start pakai spek mater darjah 3..fuh, lame giler da tu..

6. ader angan-angan nak gi Eurotrip tapi tak tau la biler nak ader duetnyer tu..sob sob..*Donald Trump ader anak lelaki tak?haha*

7. ader nickname Tengkorak Senyum time kat mrsm dulu..aku raser dorm-mate aku yang bagi..

8. suker dengar lagu di mana jua anda berada~ eceh, iklan sangat~ seriously, kadang-kadang nak makan pun nak dengar lagu, aper punyer perangai daaa~ :P

9. suker tangkap gambar bajet photographer la kan..kalo bab ditangkap gambar ala-ala model lak, muler berkecimpung atas pengaruh rakan-rakan mrsm besut dulu..haha

10. family aku panggil aku Nora, jiran-jiran pun..kawan-kawan sekolah ngan utp je panggil Zima..hehe

11. tak pernah couple zaman sekolah, tapi banyak skandal je..kah kah

12. suke beli majalah keluaran bulan December sebab time tu banyak kalendar New Year free yang cantek-cantek..haha

13. tak pernah tukar nombor handset sejak first guner dulu time 2004..

14. anak sulung..cucu ke 6 family sebelah mak, tapi family sebelah ayah aku tak terkira lak nombor berape, ramai sangat..haha

15. One Litre of Tears ialah series yang paling banyak mengeluarkan air mata aku secara free..seriously, every episode kot! membazir air mater betol..hilang ke'macho'an aku..haha

16. pernah jatuh motor kat kampung sampai kaki parut kene ekzos tapi cousin takut mak aku marah, maka sampai sekarang aku tak bagitau mak aku..haha

17. you can ask me to do anything for the house chores except for cooking..haha..i'm not a very good cooker, not yet..:P

18. suka tengok semua jenis sport except for golf..

19. mula pakai tudung sejak masuk UTP :)

20. comfortable in jeans and t-shirt most of the time..tapi mak aku selalu bising biler aku nak pakai baju cam perempuan..haih~

21. gila dengan jacket or sweater..tak tau la naper, aku raser cam smart..hehe

22. cepat lapar and kuat makan!

23. bercita-cita nak beli rumah sendiri sebab nanti boleh hias ikot taste sendiri...tapi...kerja pun tak dapat lagi..camne ni? sob sob..:P

24. pernah nyanyi lagu Maroon 5-Harder to Breathe full with lyrics macam karaoke kat depan satu kelas sebab kene denda tak siap kerja..haha..

25. geli dengan binatang2 kecik, berlendir, lembik, sejuk contoh pacat, lintah, ulat etc..tapi pacat paling fobia sebab pernah kene dekat kampung dulu..sampai skang fobia kalo balik kampung..hehe



fuh~

abes pun..haha...

so dengan ini aku nak tag orang2 yang ader kat list kat sidebar sebelah kanan ni..and nak tag jugak korang-korang yang bacer entri ni :)



selamat maen tag :)








Wednesday, January 19, 2011

i gotta feeling


that's tonight gonna be a good night~

eh, bukan sebab besok thaipusam yer :P

sebab somehow rase happy when i have the ability to forgive..

like i said before (tak ingat la ader tulis kat blog ke tak..hehe)..i never hate people, i just 'don't like'..don't like is not equal to hate..

kinda like,

"ok, tak suker dier"..bukan cam, "ah benci ar, tak boleh langsung tengok muke dier"..no no..aku just tak suker je..standard la kan..ader gak orang tak suker aku, this is normal situation, tak semua orang suker kiter, yer tak? :P

ala, menyimpang lak..back to the 'happy feeling' tadi..

somehow i held grudges against some people few years back..

not hate, i just got mad at that time..hehe..tapi macam biase, ini zima kot..mane reti marah, dendam lame2 sumer ni..tak reti~ :P

ntah camne la malam ni, biler pikir2 balik, sebenarnya aku da lame maafkan or kire cam da hilang la rase marah ke aper ke negatif2 dulu2 tu kan..

sebab cam pikir, normal la, human kan..they made mistake, i made mistake..

aku pun tak tau ke arah mane entry ni ntah..haha..

just nak cakap happy sebenarnyer biler tak simpan rase2 negatif ni..kan3?

since now, i'm happy that i can talk to some people that i thought i would never be able to forgive them before this..duh, how silly i was, huh..

i just realize that i was not mad at them anymore for quite some times..baru malam ni nak sedar? LOL

bagusla kan, aku suker la camni..

we're adult now , so let the 'high school drama' go away la kan..:)

ala senang citer aku happy la sebab aku macam free from those negatives aura..alaa..korang paham tak aper aku cuber sampaikan ni? haha..takpelah, biar aku merepek sorang2..isk2


yang penting,

happy, peace, no war..:)



notahati: masih memburu









Saturday, January 15, 2011

kerja biasa seorang 'reporter'

nak tau tak kadang-kadang kiter ader sorang 'special reporter' tau..

'reporter' ni memang laju, kalah la reporter Melodi tu..

antara situasi-situasi biasa yang boleh nampak kelajuan 'reporter' ni,

contohnyer..

biler kluarnyer result segale exam kat Malaysia ni macam UPSR,PMR,SPM..

pagi-pagi lagi 'reporter' akan call untuk tanyer..

"haa..camne si ************** punyer result?"

kalo jawapannyer result si ************ lagi rendah dari anak si 'reporter', maka si 'reporter' pun akan berbangga ngan anaknyer sambil berkater, "oh, biasela, banyak sangat maen tu, tak macam ******(anak si 'reporter' tu la).."


pulak da..

ingatkan pagi-pagi da call tu concern ke aper..ini tak..

pastu kalo result si *********** lebih dari anak dier lak, si 'reporter' serta merta berdialog, "oh, naseb baek la tu ek.."



hahahhahahhaaahhaa...lawak!!!


and semalam time aku hepi baru balek beli kasut kat Times Square (nak bagitau gak tu..haha), mak aku boleh citer si 'reporter' tu tanyer aku da keje ke tak..

aku pun cam, "like I care.."

and mak aku pun cakap la takde rezeki lagi bla3..

then ayat si 'reporter' cam, "da tu mane nak dapat duetnyer kasi kat kamu tu"..camtu dier kater kat mak aku..

ha, yang tu "I CARE"..

hello! si 'reporter', walaupun aku tak keje lagi and maybe tak keje same kampeni ngan anak kesayangan encik/puan 'reporter' tu, tak bermakna nanti aku luper mak bapak aku yer..

ingat cukup kasik duet je ke baru nak tengok camne anak balas jasa mak ayah?

argh, geram betol aku dengar ayat yang tu..mencabar kesabaran aku betol..

i know you always bragging about your 'beloved' daughter and her husband (which is also working at the same company) kan, gaji ribu riban kan..


but as i said earlier,


"i don't give a damn about that"

i just give a damn about what you said to my mother or father

and please, if you said those other words you said to my mum again, i may never ever be able to look you in the eye without being annoyed next time we meet..



fuh~ fuh~

okey, lega~

hahahhaa...ok, let's get back to usual mode..well, you know me, always happy-go-lucky one maa~ :)











Thursday, January 6, 2011

bekas-bekas kekasih hatiku yang hot



ha..mesti tertanye2 kan ramai sangat ke bekas-bekas kekasih hati zima ni? hot sangat ke?

nak tau aku jawab aper.."eh, of course!"..hahaha..


sebenarnyer malu tau nak citer pasal bekas-bekas kekasih hati aku ni..almaklumlah, orang cakap cerita lame jangan diungkit..tapi alang2 tgh free kat rumah ni kan..hehe..

meh aku citer kat korang ek..tak ramai pun..ader 10 orang je..
nak senang citer aku letak ranking top 10 la kan..kire cam siapa yang paling hot dapat no 1 la..haha..





No 10 : Gregory Smith


Greg ni aku date ngan dier kejap je..time tu 2002 kot..dier time tu tengah berlakon citer 'Everwood'..aku muler2 tengok dier ni cair tengok dier nyer boyish face..maklumlah, time tu babyface memang trend la kan..lagipun dulu dier berlakon citer Small Soldier time dier kecik2..comel kan..so aku pun date la kejap ngan dier ni...tapi last2 kitorang clash sebab dier kene balik Canada..ader shooting series kat sane..series 'Rookie Blue' kot tajuk dier..takperla, aku pasrah aje..






No 9: Legacy


Legacy ni Hip-Hop/B-Boy dancer..aku start date ngan dier time dier masuk So You Think You Can Dance Season 6..pergh, time tu memang api cinta membara-bara la wa cakap lu..tambah lagi biler tau dier pernah join tour Gwen Stefani as a dancer..lagi la cair you~ lepas dier da kene voted off, dier da start busy..jadi guest actor dalam CSI:NY la, shooting Step-Up 3D ngan The LXD: The Legion of Extraordinary Dancers la..maka kitorang pun wat keputusan nak clash..isk2..





No 8: Chace Crawford


Chace ni lak kitorang kenal-kenal time citer The Covenant..pastu start la dating kan..sampai la dier start berlakon dalam Gossip Girl..si Chace ni mater ngan senyuman dier memang leh bikin cair..haisyh..kitorang clash pun sebab masing-masing kuat cemburu..isk2..





No 7: Johnny Depp


Gosh, sexy sangat si Johnny ni..makin tua makin sexy..auuww~ muler2 couple time citer Pirates of The Carribean; The Curse of the Black Pearl..pastu makin hangat lak biler dier berlakon dalam Secret Window, Finding Neverland, Charlie and The Chocolate Factory..tapi last skali kitorang clash sebab jarak umur yang jauh sangat..lagipun tak baek la kaco dier ngan anak-anak dier kan..





No. 6: Chester Bennington


biler ek kitorang start couple..raser cam 2001 camtu...time tu aku memang cair same lagu Crawling dier nyanyi..dengan suare dier time tu..pergh, berapi! lamer gak kitorang couple2 ni..tapi last2 clash sebab isteri dier si Samantha tu marah..last2 dapat tau diorang divorced gak 2005..pastu aku ingat nak masuk line balik tapi dier da gi couple lak ngan Talinda ke aper ntah name pompuan tu..tapi dier ader gak contact2 aku suruh beli album2 baru Linkin Park..support la katernyer..last skali aku tau dier adopted anak abang dier, so anak dier jadi 4 orang la skang..malas la aku nak masuk line, tapi kitorang still baek la sampai skarang as a friend kan..






No. 5: Ian Somerhalder


Dari kerana mata~ tergoda~ eceh, gitu kan..kitorang couple senyap2 dulu time dier berlakon citer Smallville season 3..pastu time dier berlakon citer Lost pun kitorang still couple..skang ni biler dier da join The Vampire Diaries, kitorang cam suam-suam kuku je la kot..dengar2 gosip dier bercinta ngan heroin tu, si Nina Dobrev..kire kitorang ni in open relationship la..





No. 4: Garrett Hedlund


Adorable sangat dier ni..kitorang start couple time dier berlakon citer Four Brothers..time tu tengok dier cute2 gitu..pastu kitorang stay couple sampai dier berlakon Tron: Legacy..dier ni hot bukan aper..sebab dier tinggi, humble, low profile and dier ader suare yang husky gitu..da la skang ni pandai nyanyi ngan maen gitar..pasni dier jadi penyanyi dalam citer Country Strong berlakon sekali ngan Gwyneth Paltrow ngan Leighton Meester..pastu dier ader job untuk movie On The Road..haisyh, naseb baek aku ni memahami orangnyer..busy2 dier pun, sempat je contact2 nak update perihal hidup masing-masing..eceh~






No. 3: Matt Lanter


Those eyes~ haisyh..tu la, time dier berlakon citer Wargames: The Dead Zone kitorang start dating..giler cool dier ni, ngan aura ala2 bad boy..memang tertarik menarik la jadinyer..tapi dier ni suker berlakon citer2 klaka cam Disaster Movie, Vampires Suck..skang ni dier busy shooting series 90210..kadang-kadang ader gak la dier kirim poskad dari California tu..yang penting ader gambar2 terbaru wat hilang rindu..haisyh..nak clash pun sayang..isk2..





No 2: Jared Padalecki


Ni la bekas kekasih hati aku yang paling tinggi..memang saket tengkuk kalo berdiri ngan dier ni..haisyh..kitorang start couple time dier berlakon citer Gilmore Girls..cute sangat dier time tu..dengan dimples dier lagi..auuww~ ader gak dier berlakon citer Cheaper by the Dozen, New York Minute ngan Cry Wolf..lamer gak kitorang couple..sampai dier join Supernatural..tapi last2 clash sebab dier kawen ngan salah sorang guest actress dalam Supernatural tu..aperkan daya, pasrah aje ler..




and number 1 is.....





Jensen Ackles




The hottest man on earth..tall, dark, and handsome..humble, funny, can sing and play guitar.. the greatest actor, bukan nyer jual muke handsome je, acting pun mantap..boleh berlakon scene nanges kuar airmate kat sebelah mater je pulak tu (disahkan oleh krew2 set and pengarah)..mane la aku xkater hot..memang kitorang couple time dier berlakon citer Dark Angel..2002 kot time tu..pastu dier berlakon lak Smallville season 4..time dier gi audition untuk Smallville, aku teman dier bagi support..sayangnyer dier dapat runner-up je..tapi producer suker sangat acting dier ni sampai sanggup tambah watak baru untuk season 4 smallville special untuk dier..lepas tu dier join Supernatural..memang aku excited la time tu sebab dier berlakon jadi ala2 badboy 'shoot first,ask later'..gitu~ sambil2 tu dier ader gak berlakon movie cam Devour, Ten Inch Hero ngan My Bloody Valentine..lepas tu, taun lepas dier baru kawen ngan Danneel Harris..haisyh, naseb baek la aku suker ngan wife dier tu..cantek, sweet..aku tau dier pilih wife dier tu sebab teringatkan aku la tu..skang ni kitorang still contact2 lagi..nak wat camne, he's the hottest one! oh luper, pastu ader gak dier suruh aku tengok dier nyanyi time dier ngan member dier tengah wat convention Supernatural..comel sangat tengok dier nervous time ni..eceh..






haa..
camne? hot kan bekas-bekas kekasih hatiku~ haha...

kalo korang nak tau details mane-mane yang korang raser berkenan boleh la tanyer aku..aku ni memang peng'google' yang berjaya kalo pasal lelaki2 hot ni..hahhaa...
 


okay la, nak gi call diorang ni sumer jap la, terindu lak biler citer pasal diorang ni...hahaha...:P





notahati: ini entry just for fun yer kawan-kawan. jangan mara~ hehehe :P











Monday, January 3, 2011

Don't Stop Believing


currently being in this phase of life somehow makes me depressed, ya know..

not that i'm pessimistic or anything, trust me, i am very very very optimistic person..:)

it just that for the time being i'm not able to be optimistic..

but..

not that i'm not grateful, it just..

i don't know how to put it into words..

see, i know it not just only me currently being unemployed but somehow the pressure is getting higher day by day, ya know..

somehow when i know/accidentally read/heard that my friends being employed or got interviewed, i feel a little bit out of confidence..

not that i'm not happy for them, i do feel happy feel them..seriously, since they can treat me after they got their first salary, right? :P no, no..seriously seriously, I AM HAPPY FOR YOU GUYS :)

it's just my inner demon (wow, sorry for so much supernatural reference..haha) somehow makes me questioning my ability to be able to being an employee..

it's like..

"can i do this?"

"can i work in this sector?"

"does my qualification is not enough to meet employer's requirement?"


things like that..see, that's why i called it my inner demon..have nothing to do with everyone else actually..so, don't worry, i am not talking about anyone, i am talking about me..hehe..

and the situation keeps getting worse when somehow some people keep asking and asking and asking without thinking about how i would feel..not my friends, i know somehow some of my friends are feeling the same as me..hehe..it just some older older people keep being nosy..gratefully, not my parents, i am thankful that they are being understanding and keep supporting me, oh yeah, i am grateful :)


haaa...

sorry, i'm rambling here..haha..somehow being able to express it here makes me feel lighter..hehe..


okeh, now let's do some relaxation moves..hiyah! hiyah! yeah! that's the spirit!


okay, now i am full of spirit again..

i will hunting and hunting and hunting until i get the right job for me..oh, and my friends as well :)

pray for me yea :)


and i know the right song for the time being...




Glee Cast - Don't Stop Believing